I'm trying to keep a positive attitude here, but the days are running together. Not even a nibble on the job front. It's not that I'm applying for jobs and not getting them, it's that the market here has slowed dramatically and even the headhunters are silent. I've been searching, but the small pool of available jobs are not in my field and don't pay enough to survive on. This experience is a first in my entire working life, and I don't like it. I may be looking at an involuntary career change to find work at all. But then there is the question - an involuntary career change to what? (Probably not English teacher.)
On the positive side, I am sleeping well. Girl left Dudley with me again last night, she came over to do her taxes and raid my fridge, and then she was off to the mall for shoes. It made more sense to leave him with me another night, rather than drive by her house to drop him off and then back to the mall. I'll return him this morning, it gives me a reason to get up, shower and get dressed. Because yes, this is getting to me and I have to work on my attitude and finding my energy. I was a pathetic slug yesterday, I sent out a couple of resumes and watched a lot of TV. I have concluded that Dudley gives off powerful sleep waves that helps anyone around him sleep better. I, who never manage to stay asleep more than 6 hours a night, can sleep 10 hours when he's here. Girl has slept away more than one day off thanks to the Dudley Effect. He has to go home, I need my nervous energy back. Then I think it's back to Home Depot.
I should apply for a job while I'm there.
Can I rent him? I've been happy to get six hours, lately.
ReplyDeletethe sleep thing is probably a bit of depression
ReplyDeletebut this will pass
and maybe it is time to change fields for you.....look at what happened when bernie did!
better job
better pay
better working conditions
wonderful people
renewed jest for life
renewed interest in career
maybe that gift is waiting for you too?
i hope so
vi
I think the waking up in the night is the stress and depression showing itself. I do think I will ultimately end up in a different field, or at least a different focus of the legal field, but it's really strange to have no direction at the moment.
ReplyDeletecatherine that is actually a good thing...... you want to be able to eventually point like a compass right
ReplyDeleteever watch one?
it swings around a bit until it settles...
besides you will end up moving by bess!!!!!!!
and we all get to see you folks at mdsw
bernie went through this as well...
we would have starved more comfortably on unemployment with his last job
he told me there was no where for him
he found somewhere and so will you
vi
thank you for saying exactly what has gone through my mind the last few weeks.
ReplyDeleteSorry that you are bummed and stressed.
yay for the Dudley effect.