Digging deep to find something positive, though very small.

This refers to the wise advice I read online about coping: do what you can to keep your own life in order, pay attention, but take breaks, because we are in this for the long haul.

 I'm getting a new AC system on Monday, so yay?  The temporary fix the very nice tech rigged (while telling me it would work for now but not for long) failed on Wednesday afternoon. It stopped cooling, and then the compressor started making comical noises: first it rattled, then there was a pop, then there was a whistling sound like air from a very large balloon. It's really most sincerely dead. 

I was already getting prices and trying to decide whether I wanted to finance it short term or just write a check, and planned to replace it later this month, but yeah, the installers will be here bright and early Monday and I'm just writing a check, because fuck it.

So, the positive: if your AC has to die, it's lovely when it happens when it's not over 90 degrees. I'm using the ancient ceiling fans I rarely run to circulate the air. It would have been great if I'd had the money to replace the windows, because this is definitely open windows and ceiling fans season here, but, yeah, the AC jumped to the head of the line by being brought back from the dead a few weeks ago and then doing a really over the top dramatic death scene. 

So I'll have a lovely new much more efficient AC system, but still can't open these 40+ year old windows. (I can open the big sliding doors at the rear and that's most of the air flow, it's just two front facing windows that would offer circulation if they worked, but yeah, if I open them they very likely won't properly close again. They're older than my middle-aged kids.) And then they become a security issue. One of these non-functioning windows is in my home office. I will never take cross-ventilation for granted again. 

Also the positive: I have the cash on hand to take care of it, and I'm getting a bonus that will at least partially replenish the emergency fund taking the hit for this. Hoping my daughter and fam will be able to vacate the "investment property" by summer, because that would help a lot. I'm just hoping I can sell it for the current value before the housing market is affected by the shitshow.

See me being positive?? 

I'm getting out of my not miserably warm but slightly stuffy house tomorrow, because my daughter the Ninja Disney Scheduler has set us up for an afternoon at Magic Kingdom. She booked me for Space Mountain, and my knees growled threateningly. I will pass on that, thanks. It turns out that Baby Daddy has lived in FL for years and had been to Disney before, but has never been on Space Mountain!! I agreed that he must do it at least once, to confirm that it's just uncomfortable and dated. Sorry, sorry, it's a classic!! I dare not speak heresy! I've been on it somewhere between 20 and infinity times, and yeah, each time I tell myself it's the last. I will not be coaxed into it again.

I'll wait with the young Prince, and possibly the Kid. She's not crazy about Space Mountain either. Our alternative will be Auntie Gravity's for some ice cream while we wait for them. 

As far as the national shitshow goes, I do believe we now have confirmation that the Republicans sold us out to Russia, and I hope that everybody who voted for this, (or didn't vote because Kamala's position on Gaza or whatever the fuck) will eat shit and die. You created this international disgrace and your kids and grandchildren will have to live with your dumbfuckery, or possibly not live. 

Meanwhile, those of us who saw this coming from miles off will just have to figure out how to navigate this. I really didn't plan to spend my "golden years" fighting fascism, but here we are.  Right now it seems like a bunch of incompetent flailing, "Oh wait, did we fire the people who take care of the nukes, or (fill in the blank)? Our bad!! Air traffic controllers, please come back! 

They really don't give a shit about governing, or the American people, or whatever bullshit they used to say. it's all out in the open now. 

You voted for Trump, or couldn't vote for Harris for whatever bullshit reason you use to cover your racism and misogyny?  Fuck off and die. That's all I've got. Coincidentally, that's all your Orange Savior has for you too.