I went to bed at 10. I took 2 Benadryl and listened to sleep stories. I woke up at 2:30 feeling so tense. I checked my phone and learned that white people decided we should go with fascism instead. Democracy had a pretty good run, but America is over.
And you know, if their Orange Savior was a really smooth, slick talker who said all the right things and tricked them, I could sort of understand. But JFC, he's a shambling, slurring, incoherent, hateful old fart. If he was your grandpa, the family would be having a serious conversation about putting him in a home.
White people saw, shrugged, and said whatever. They proved they'll vote for anybody but a brilliant and qualified black woman.
I feel gut punched, sickened, and like an idiot. Though I'm in Florida and it really does suck here, clearly I've been living in my own happy bubble all this time. I work in a multicultural environment of mostly college graduates of all ages, my friends are multicultural, gay and straight, younger and older than I am. I thought I knew a pretty representative cross section of Americans.
Clearly, though I'm a white woman, I have not been living in the real white America all this time.
I have no positive thoughts to share. I am utterly and completely disgusted with this country.
Glad to read your post, I just don’t understand! This is a travesty.
ReplyDeleteI am hoping to move past my anger and get to the point of tears. I used to be able to cry, now it's a very rare thing. Tears are healing, and much healthier for your body than the incandescent fucking rage I am experiencing right now. - C
ReplyDeleteAnd 2 days later, I am still trying to come to grips with what has happened... Boggles my mind that so many people bought into what he was saying. I live in a blue hole in a red state and am stunned by how many people feel that that man is fit to be president.
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I'm grieving the loss of the country I thought I knew.
ReplyDeleteI am with you and all the other commenters. I’m stunned and fluctuating between incandescent rage, despair, and disgust at the half of the country that thinks that fascist shitgibbon is just fine.- Caroline
ReplyDeleteFuck those people, they're assholes. Keep being a good, caring creative person. Dance on the way to the grave. (Yes I am in a place) - k
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