Oh, Dear God, What Have I DONE?

My schedule for the next two months plus is insane. On top of the wall-to-wall remodeling project (scheduled before the last piece of the OMG dropped into place the other day), I have to complete 45 hours of online education for my real estate license. This is not just a zone out and click screens thing; there are chapter tests you must pass and a comprehensive exam at the end, or I will lose my FL license and not be able to use these hours toward my NC continuing ed, which means I have to at least take good notes while clicking. I also need to schedule time in the morning - get up extra early and knock out a chunk each day.

And work is sheer insanity on the best of days. I am negotiating for a NICE raise. Boss Man is not going to get away with throwing me a few bucks for this shit; I have proven my worth and he agrees that we have to re-negotiate my salary. I got hired at basically generic "experienced paralegal" pay in this market, because I was hired to manage his portion of his world and keep him organized. Yeah, I suspected after the first few weeks that the job description was basically bullshit, and I've already told him we would be re-negotiating my salary, and he agreed. The work I am doing is highly specialized, complicated, and requires a hell of a lot more development and government and corporate law knowledge than any generic "experienced" paralegal has ever even seen. Fortunately, he's a really, truly good guy and knows this.

I'm now somehow going to be managing the nuts and bolts of a massive, important, not exaggerating when I say the future of the company hangs on the outcome project that will wrap up in mid-October. And, like everything else I've been thrown since I started the job, I've never done anything like this before. But I get it, and I am not in it alone; a guy I like is officially in charge and I will not hesitate to throw problems I can't fix at him, so it's not THAT horrifying. But the many moving parts of herding the cats on the team, and checking their homework, and stage-managing EIGHT different project applications at once - yeah, that's my next two and a half months. Oh, and that's on top of everything I'm already doing; that's not going away.

I didn't know that this shit was going to hit my particular fan when I scheduled this massive home remodeling project; the dates are driven by outside forces. Right now, it looks like the remodeling will be wrapped up before this gets too insane, but I may be scarce around This Olde Blogge for the next couple of months. (I know, I know - like this is different?)

Yet, I am not stressed. Incredibly busy, juggling many things, but not freaked out about any of it. Somehow, meditation and affirmations and healthy eating and exercise and yes, knitting when I can find the time, has changed my internal wiring in a very good way. I love feeling challenged, and this is all very energizing!