The people on the Brain Aneurysm Foundation message boards call this an "annie-versary," but that's just too twee for me. I prefer to think of it as my other birthday, the day my life nearly ended and then started over. Obviously it has gotten off to a rocky start, wrapping up the first year of survival by losing my job and having to sell the house and all the rest hasn't exactly been the reward I think I have earned. I mean, after all I've been through in the last few years I think I have earned a winning lottery ticket and George Clooney serving me breakfast in bed, not unemployment and starting over from scratch with every aspect of my life.
But that's where I am, starting over from scratch. I don't know where I'll be living, or what I'll be doing, or...anything, really. I have a few ideas and plans, but they are so formless and flexible at this point...my future is made of Silly Putty. It's kind of exciting, really. Scary and hard, but also exciting. And honestly, after nearly losing my life, nothing seems all that hard in comparison.
This stretch of unemployment has been good for me in a lot of ways. I think it helped my recovery. The post-aneurysm brain fog has lifted, I hope for good, and I think I am mentally and physically damn near 100%. It really would be nice if I didn't have to work for a living anymore, but without George or the winning lotto ticket, that's not in the cards. So today I will send a resume to the first decent job prospect I've seen in weeks, and fill a few more boxes, throw down a few more bags of mulch, and wash the dog. The bedroom was measured for new carpet yesterday, and tomorrow morning the electrician will do a few little tasks, and we are on the two week countdown for listing the house. Time to get on with this new life.
ETA: swiped from Martha. Yeah, I'd call it accurate - higher than 71% and I'd be delusional right now, but I am still damn thankful.
You Are 71% Thankful |
 You are a very thankful person - for both the big and little things in life. Your optimism is powerful. Getting through hard times is fairly easy for you. |
Miz C,
ReplyDeleteWe are so glad you have an anniversary to celebrate!!
All sorts, sizes & forms of candles, fireworks, flowers, balloons, boxes of candy, smooooshy yarns & rosebuds to you, girlfriend.
Continued energy & luck w/ the resume & house & cleaning & dog time.
XOXO
Dammit, I want George!
ReplyDeleteDon't I deserve him, too?
I'm willing to share!
I'm very happy to wish you a happy first birthday. You don't look a day over... wait, that's not working.
Okay, you can have George, I'll pry Harrison Ford away from that Calista person. But remember, George is already peeling grapes for the Go Fug Yourself girls, so you will still have to share.
ReplyDeleteHappy Other Birthday, and many many more to you. Glad you are here to celebrate. Here's hoping 08 is the Year of the Upward Swing.
ReplyDeleteWhew! Gal you haven't had just a year! You've had half a decade. Time for the other half to be more fun.
ReplyDeletein the snow.
if your future is still so plastic and still has the ability to be formed
ReplyDeletewhat have you written out for it????????
may as well script it no?
vi
http://jobs.grist.org/admin-jobs/
ReplyDeleteme again i was to martha's and found through her links this
maybe take a poke around
vi
Thanks for the link, Vi, I've saved it. Nothing on there suitable for me, but I'll definitely add it to the sites I'm trolling regularly, because you never know.
ReplyDeleteWhere do I see myself? Hmmm. I like managing information and fixing problems. I hate managing people. I can do it, but I don't like it at all. I like being respected for my contributions. If I could write my own dream job and money was not an object, that's easy - I'd work for the Humane Society or any big animal rescue group, or any of several environmental groups. I'd be Al Gore's Girl Friday, but Tipper would never go for it, I have already admitted having the hots for him.
But since money IS an object and I would like to think I could retire someday, I'm looking at everything from paralegal to true "executive assistant" stuff - by that I mean right hand to a CEO of a real company, not office girl in a two man shop. I did send a resume to ONE really good prospect in this area, so if you all could cross your fingers for me, it's a job I am well suited for and also pays enough and has benefits and is not going to go out of business tomorrow. Otherwise, there ain't shit here.
but catherine....you are to move up by bess and amie and them
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If The Job is there, I will go. Step one is unloading this house. Steps 2 through infinity are yet to be determined.
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